Today Hope and I were talking in the driveway while waiting for her bus to arrive. She became very serious and looked up at me from her wheelchair and said, "You know God loves you even though you divorced my Dad." Then she sang a song for me, "God is a friend who will always be there He will be there right beside me. When I am troubled or when I am down He is a friend who can always be found."
I could see in her eyes she sincerely was relaying a message to me from my Father in heaven. A message she herself had found comfort in. My heart was touched and I let her know how much with a hug and kiss. I told her she was very wise and that she just shared a message everyone needs to know. Simple and True. Although I know this is true, sometimes it is too simple. I must complicate it with my doubts. Now I would argue I have no doubt, however, my insecurity and shame would scream otherwise. Believing it is secretly hidden I have recently had a friend ask me, "Why do you believe you are not worthy?" I quickly responded that wasn't the situation then it was clear to me as if a light was turned on, she was absolutely right! She could see it and she heard it in my conversation.
Secretly I believe I wear a capital "D". This is a lie from Satan, because being divorced does not define who I am in the eyes of my God. He sees me through the righteousness of Jesus. Jesus paid the dept for the forgiveness of sins. I love the Lord Jesus with my whole heart and at times believe I am only just beginning to comprehend His love for me. In my failures ~ imperfections, mistakes He is right there loving me. I would tell anyone and everyone the same and believe it for them, because it is the Simple and True message from God's Holy word.
I continue to discipline myself in God's word ~ to separate others conditional love and actions from the truth of God's word. "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romains 8:38,39)
People will let us down and life will happen ~ not according to plan. If expectations of other's perfection, love and acceptance has crushed your spirit...know that the only perfect, unconditional love and acceptance comes from above. I will not fear what can man do to me...perfect love cast out fear and I am loved perfectly by my Father in heaven.
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